how to be alone

I'm really shy. I don't like dancing, because I need to be middle of the people and somene might be watching.
I once went to the movies, alone, and got really bad feeling because I was thinking only that how lonely I must be if i'm alone in the movies. I don't ever go out to eat alone, nor have coffee in nice cafes. Even I would really want. I went few times to read in park, it lasted 10minutes and I was back at home. Crazy, huh?

Then I found this video, made by Tanya Davis and Andrea Dorfman (via Susannah Conway)



(edit: the video seems to have some problems of showing here, you can watch it from youtube too)

I need to create some tasks for myself, what I need to do before my sickleave ends. Like go to sit in a terrace and have drink or coffee, read a book in a park, dance, and see a movie. I need to learn how to be alone.