My alarm rang too early, hardly could open my eyes. I knew I shouldn't lie down in bed too long, needed to get ready and have at least cup of coffee before leaving home this morning.
It was colder than I expected, should have taken another wool shirt. Sometimes I forget where I've parked the car the previous day, after the work. But not this time, since it was unusual to park this far.
The car windows were frozen. The second time this year. I left the center, intra muros like we call, to get the results from the hospital of Avignon.I was feeling tired, bit stressed but good, since it's been few days I wanted to get the results.
The hospital was packed full of people, waiting to check in. Luckily I could just walk to the xray/MRI/CT scan department and get the papers. I felt like reading all right there, but started walking towards the main doors.
The shock hit me. I saw words in French, telling about herniated disc. I decided to push the papers off to my bag and walk to the car, to have a seat and read it through.
I called my Mom, R, my sister too.
I was diagnosed with herniated disc what is touching nerve, and a second bulging disc. I was waiting clean scans, what I got was 2 problems.
My doctor confirmed the results this afternoon. She looked the papers and said "aïe, you need to see the specialist. You have this and this, no sports at all, no pysical therapy until the specialist tell you what is the treatment"
I will see "the best rheumatology" (as I've heard) in Avignon, in one month. I don't know what I'd the treatment.
Some filtration with cortisone injected directly to the disc is one they propose first, before surgery this needs to be done twice before they call it as failed and no other option. I have had back pains for half!! of my life. I have seen my doctor for all these years passed in France, everytime my pain was diagnosed as lumbago until now I asked for the scan.
I'm stressed, scared but also relieved to know that it wasn't just in my head! There is actually something wrong.
I included a small part of the CT scan, what shows the 2 disc problems. Propably you will have hard time to spot these, but it's there.
I made the decision for now to have a pause with the riding. I will miss Justy a lot. I have lot of thinking to do, lots of physical therapy coming and rehab for the back for sure - no matter what is the treatment.
Maybe this isn't the best subject to blog about, people likes happy things and cute stuff. Life is sometimes more than photographing, food posts and what i wore today.
I hope you will tag along with these depressing times, and for sure it's not the end of happy things :)
Soon it's Valentines day! Tell me what you have planned! We are having a dinner at home, I'm trying to find new recipes to try.